I love you, God.
But I don't always feel it, or feel like I'm really enacting that love.
Remember my conversation with Peter?
In case I needed prompting, Sunday's scripture reading took us to the breakfast by the sea and the very conversation that had come to mind in the labyrinth. In Peter's case, he was walking the long path uphill toward redemption and reconciliation with his Master and Lord. Jesus initiates the conversation of restoration. Peter, do you love me? Do you love me more than fishing? Do you really love me?
And when Peter, wanting so desperately to believe himself, and to have Jesus believe as well, answers "yes" and "yes" and "yes!"
Jesus responds: "Feed my sheep".
How do I prove to myself that I love God?
John says, "Dear children, do not love in words or tongue, but in actions and in truth. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenver our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything." 1 John 3:18-20
I'm reminded that I don't have to "feel" that I love God to be loving God. I love God by bringing nurture and nourishment to those around me.